Seriously, I feel like I've been asleep these last 5 years. I didn't realize the state of depression I was in. For the first time in forever, I actually want to do things. And for the first time in forever, I actually kind of feel like I can. The cloud of depression was like poison to me, a paralyzing agent, numbing me to the world and to myself. Even just breathing feels different. I feel like I can actually breathe! Where before it was just a gasp, burdened as I was by gloom and shame and worthlessness. I don't know if this euphoric feeling will wear off but I thank God for lifting this fog from me.
Come thou fount of every blessing, tune my heart to sing thy grace.